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English translation

engagement

you were supposed to be my happiness remember
together through thick and thin
kissing in the back-alleys not looking back
nothing was supposed to count family money

just we ourselves
you me
our tomorrow
our forevermore

I feel fingers on my neck hands
among the folds of an opened shirt
you undress me in the darkness twisting
arms around not listening to any requests not seeing me

just sex
your hand my thighs
yesterday today
I bite into a pillow with a scream

just once more
just one more push the last one
you must have me now
this very minute or else you won't endure you have needs

I lie on my back
I see the ceiling
whiteness and blood on the covers
there is no tomorrow just sex

and today we'll do this twice
at least it is your paycheck day
in the end